Sunday, October 17, 2010

Respect the process.. Well the joke is on me.

I have written about "respecting the process" before. I first heard the phrase when I was going through a difficult break up. I did not know what to make of it but in time it became my motto. Recently I have been thinking about the direction my life is going. I was talking with my boyfriend regarding trying to respect the process in which we are in and learn from it day to day . It suddenly dawned on me that what I am respecting is just Gods will. I have finally started to let Him drive this crazy train! I kept telling my boyfriend to accept the way he feels and what comes his way ie; respect the process. I did not even realize I was actually telling him to just trust God. When I put these thoughts together I laughed out loud. As I posted a few blogs back I was reading a self retreat book, https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqK75ZxJKbfUktLCAAnbHA3zsbimWhec2UveWQPUg3HfCpL6NYVAxZcshCt9m56tsbY4QUe7sASO3qXGllvW84jfTwmXwg-syeZ4GSbyTPJSlEIN4trDdx6L2gFXsh1MdLXorXNIbGbSLp/s1600/jesus.jpg In that book the author describes coming to God with all your issues, all the things you want to break but just cant. He says that since Our Lord is so loving He will slowly take those issues away for you and you wont even know He is doing it. That is exactly what happened with me. I was overjoyed when I realized this, thankful beyond belief. Here I was this whole time  thinking I was trying  so hard to focus , accept , to cope in a way,  when really He was the one doing all the work! He was and is the one in control and because He is the Master of love, he has wooed me into a better place.