New roads Old cars.

As most of you know I am a nanny. I work with a great family that will be moving in less then a month. I am heart broken and looking for other work. I have come to find that the situation I am in is unlike any other. A lot of the families I have interviewed with have been lets just say different. I come from a large close family so maybe that hinders my view on family life. I am having a hard time going to these interviews and not being judgmental. I am trying to just give this gift of love to a family whom I feel is a right match however that is not as easy as it seems. With all this taking place all I keep thinking is that I do not want to do this anymore. I want to be a care taker but a care taker of my own children. I want to be the one who is cried for through out the day, who is missed  at nap time. I am guessing these are normal woman emotions , a hangover from my ticking clock. I still do not know what is going to happen for summer work and as usual I am still confused on my vocation but it does give me peace to know there is something coming, even if I do not know what that is. I can take rest in the fact that changes is going to come good or bad.

Stop and smell the flowers Shannon!

Every day I drive to Lawrence to spend 4-6 hours with two of the sweetest, loving children I have ever met. Today was like any other day expect William and I had to run to the store. While there we took a little trip to the land of bread for a treat and some alone time. This little stop was the high light of my day. Just sitting and talking to him over coffee and a sticky bun was so much fun. It made me slow down, take a second. I realized I have known this little guy since birth and now fast approaching not only his 2nd birthday but the families move to another state had me feeling sad and a tad lonesome. I love this family, they have been a constant support to me in prayers and love. They are a dream family to work for and I know I will never find another one like them. I know I have made life long friends. So as I think of all these things allowing myself to stop and just soak in these moments with this amazing little man, we begin to walk to the car. William stops cold and says " stop and smell the flowers with me, Shannon'. My heart stopped , I am sure we have done this a hundred times but today it had more meaning, today it was a nudge from the Holy Spirit telling me to embrace this moment that God was giving me, not to let the world over take me but just to stop and smell the flowers.