Dream big

I am a big advocate of doing what you want. Now I know that can be taken a few ways and since I am a Christian I know that it can and always is brought up in argument. However what I mean by that is, standing up for what you believe in, in union with God. I am pro life so I pray and I stand up for the unborn.I feel that we all should do what makes us happy so I pray and ask God what that is. I recognize that I am small, I know nothing so I consult the One who knows it all. I want to follow my dreams and I want my dreams to have passed through His sleep first. If that means I move to Rome and live in a small home raising children and making meals then wonderful, if that means I stay here and work until my hands are old and wrinkled with the signs of my life then I am pleased to do it. I actually think that a elderly woman's hands are one of the most beautiful pieces of art God makes. No matter what my dreams may be I will chase them, praying and letting the sweet wind of the Holy Spirit fill my lungs.

Grace Love and Will.

I have been a Christian long enough to know God loves me, however that doesn't stop me from being shocked every time He intercedes in my life. It really makes me think about all the people who say that there is no God. It makes me wonder, have they tried praying? When we are in love with God, and we have the will to follow Him then our will interlines with His. So when we are praying or asking for help or just talking to Him about our life His answer is what is utterly best for us.. Not because we loose ourselves in the relationship but because He loves us so much He gives us what is best for us and what will and does make us happy. I feel like we all forget from time to time that He created us, like the loving Father He is He wants to take care of us so shouldn't he know what is best? Now we can and do use our free will in all of this and he is fine and happy about that but I guess the point I am stumbling to make here is that if we love truly love then trust in him is short to follow and then around the corner comes bliss, whether the answer we receive is what we wanted or not.

Frustration

I have been so tired of my life these last few weeks. I am tired of thinking about what is next. I am tired of putting my trust in people. I am just tired. I guess that tiredness comes from frustration. I am frustrated with my state in life at the moment yet my hands are tied when it comes to change and I have always hated that. I was always so determined to be in control to be able to call the shots in my own life but it has yet to happen. Now at 24 I find myself back in the same spot waiting for someone else to call the shots so I can see what my next move is. I can complain about this all I want but I do have control in something, I can choose to walk away or stay. But then the questions of love comes in. How much are you willing to deal with for love? Do you "stand by your man" while he figures things out with hopes that it will all work out in your favor or do you walk away live life and wait for him to get it together alone? I say stay. I say that if this are what God wants and I am to marry this man I need to support him, in good times and in bad. However, is that being walked on or a good woman?