Saturday, October 3, 2009
Failure
I guess we have all felt like a failure at one time or another. Accompanied with my feeling of emptiness I have one of failure. Recently my boyfriend and I have been talking about marriage. Talking about all the stuff that leads up to the final decision; can we do it? is it Gods will? is it our will? Well we were having some trouble for one reason or another so we went to talk to our parish priest for some guidance some advice on what we should do.. End result; I feel like a failure. The priest had some great insight.He made a lot of sense and gave us great advice however I walked out of the office feeling like I failed. I pushed us to be in this part of the relationship and I thought I was doing what God wanted. I thought since I felt so strongly and wanted so badly to be with my boyfriend I was doing the right thing. Yet I realized it is a mix of my will and God's. I was doing Gods will by being with my boyfriend however I was doing His will at my pace. That's not how it works. God has a path a plan and time for all of us and we have to be able to bend and trust that He knows what is best. So here I am , I feel like I am standing in a white room, no way in or out. What happens next? The only answer I have is trust God, give up control and hope that everything is going to be alright. Because in the end that all we can do. We have to trust and wait and pray , I have to practice what I preach. A good dose of humility.
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Dearest Shannon,
ReplyDeleteI do not portend to be an advisor. However, All things in God's time is something we all need to learn. That does not mean one is a failure because one did not understand the timing. I hope that you and your boyfriend keep the lines of communications open, without pushing. Keep it gentle and loving. Stay open to one another's thoughts and hearts. God's time could be sooner than you think! :)
Humbly submitted, I remain your friend,
Rosie
Reading this blog post made me think of something that was recently brought to my attention from God’s Word. I think about it a lot and it helps me. Maybe you can take something from it as well.
ReplyDeleteProberbs 3:5-7
5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.
This is God telling us how we can know His will. Do the things that you know to do, and trust God for the rest. Continue to acknowledge Him in your ways. If you are doing the things God has commanded us to do day in and day out, then step by step along the way he will show you what you need to do. He will give you both peace when you are both in His will and have surrendered it all to Him. And when his timing and preparation has been fulfilled. God's plan for a man and a woman is marriage. He instituted marriage. So you know your goal is right. You just don't know how to get there.
It is not about giving up control to God and hoping everything is going to be alright. Give it up to Him KNOWING that His plans and ways are beyond our understanding. Knowing that in His hands is the best place for your struggles to be. Our only responsibility is to do what we know to do and trust God. If you are following Him you are in His Will and therefore following his plans for you. There is no better place to be. You can't get any more "alright" than that.
And yes, we fail God every day. But God will never fail us.
Sorry is this is scattered or hard to follow… ;-P